your modern day old-fashioned woman

while countless women in the poor, rural areas dream of flying to the capital city and marrying a man with a stable career and source of income, i'm doing the exact opposite.

something interesting: i saw a reddit post about the feminine nature on r/RedPillWomen.

it made complete sense, at least in the relationship i'm in. my man – captain – is very much a red-pilled man (it stings, but i have to say that) so if i would like for our relationship to work, i should work towards becoming a red-pilled woman.

for a bit of context —

what's a red-pilled woman?

she is basically:

you get the picture. it's the type of characterization that second-wave feminists want to burn at the stake.

for me, it's a 180-degree turn, considering i'm also a feminist and a leftist.

i've always been for strong, independent women who extend their social involvement and contribution beyond the realms of traditional heterosexual relationships and household dynamics. i say fuck patriarchy. let women be free. there ought to be equality in relationships. no to double standards and stereotyping!

i learned this all in my college education.

and yet, i'm in this red-pilled relationship where my man could go pretty much wherever he wants, while he demands me to stay indoors (can't go surfing on my own), stay fair and pretty, dress conservatively, stop getting tattoos – after telling me that he plans to get some tattoos.

(regarding the tattoo thing, i mean, really...i've been getting them since i was sixteen. i can stop, okay, given he doesn't make me fucking jealous of a new tattoo! i know it's petty, but this is gender and sex politics!)

but anyway – i don't find the red pill theory cringey at all. matter of fact, i kinda like it. by nature, i'm submissive, and i love looking up to a dominant figure to follow and respect.

for example, i love wearing dusters even if it looks weird on me because i got a bunch of arm tattoos. it feels ok too sometimes to just shut up and sit pretty while captain does all the work.

and here's my deepest desire:

i want to become a rural wife. i want to be your modern day old-fashioned woman. i want to live in a hut. i want to go surfing, feed chickens, be one with nature, and explore the world with my postmodern mind.

i basically want to be a manansala painting.

Manansala painting

VICENTE SILVA MANANSALA (1910-1981) Mother and Child Image from Christie's

i'm excited for that next chapter of my life.

while countless women in the poor, rural areas dream of flying to the capital city and marrying a man with a stable career and source of income, i'm doing the exact opposite.

you could say i was born to subvert and challenge common sense. or maybe i'm just a head strong, stubborn, resistant maverick.

a hell of a woman.

if my life were to become an academic paper, it's going to be titled:

“The Rural-Millennial Wife: Stories About A Traditional, Conservative Household, As Told and Lived By A Progressive, Contemporary Young Woman”